This week I turn 26 (on Wednesday, September 3 to be exact 😉 ). Now I know that this doesn’t make me old by any means, but reaching the other side of my 20’s has made me look back and think about what I have accomplished in my first 26 years of life. At first glance I wasn’t impressed. I didn’t feel as if I had anything to show for the life that my amazingly, merciful God had given me. I couldn’t see any tangible results. Shortly after I turned 25 I was diagnosed with Insulin Resistance, which (along with other factors) has made my 3 year battle with infertility a rough one. Finding out that what I’ve dreamed of since I was a little girl, the part that will round out the plan I’ve had since high school — finish college, marry a loving man of God (these words do not even begin to describe the love I have for my husband) begin a career that will be ever satisfying, buy a house, and start a family– the part that will fulfill my deepest desires to nurture and love, wont be as easy as I thought is would. It left me feeling like a failure, but with the help of my husband and a nudge from a Francesca Battistelli song I’m beginning to realize that my worth is not measured in a college degree, the Love of a man, the products of a career, how clean my house is, or how many children I’ve raised. My worth is found in the Love of a Savior who died on a cross for ME, for all of us. We just have to let go, and let God handle the worries of our heart. We have to open our eyes and see the blessings being poured out before us. I have finished college, I am married to a man that follows and trusts the Lord, I have a career where I inspire and interact with people everyday, I have a home and a roof over my head, and family and friends that love and support me. My life is not perfect, but its MY life. There are good days, there are bad days, and there are in between days. So this week a new season begins. A season of hungering for a better relationship with God, others, and especially with FOOD! A season where I lean more on the Lord’s strength and less on my own. I trust God to show me the things I can change to be in a better position to see and receive his blessings, and I pray for open mind when he points those things out because he will! 🙂
Forever and for Eternity,
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
P.S. : How have you been Blessed?